Chronicle Of Life

jus 1

2007-01-25T06:52:00.000-08:00

another 1

but less dan 2 hours away..

i tink dats sth wrong btw us

but anw happy 2 to us..

last year of dis time i was at kenne hm busy preparing..

trying to lie to her tellng her im goin supper and wait for 12 to struck

everything went ahead with wad i wan..

the sunflower--it should withered by now
the frame and the big poster--collected dust and kept in cupboard respectively
the choco cornflake--went thru the nature cycle

but i hope everything seem sweet at dat moment but anyhow is only a moment

and you got it.. but coudln expect u to come at twelve to surprise mi

anw sorry..

two is double, double is bliss

2007-01-24T05:29:00.000-08:00

2 more days..

everything fine today..

in hall VII now..

t h r e e

2007-01-23T06:09:00.000-08:00

3 more days

terrible headache today

dropped!!!

sorry to the co owner of dis blog..

5 - 1 = 4

2007-01-22T06:05:00.000-08:00

4 more days

im crazy..

1 + 1 = 2 counting down to the big two

2007-01-21T07:29:00.000-08:00

5 days....

love love....

in search of myself and what i truly want..
don't understand myself at all after 22 years of living..
i don't know what i want and what i'm acheiving in future or now..
sad case..
i don't want to lead my life this way..
getting of the shit poverty cycle..
and crazy ever changing character..
who i am?

2006-12-10T12:17:00.000-08:00

its been a long time since I blogged here.. and btw, nice pics we have here huh? (= i suppose we need more of them to record the youth and happiness of us! whatever happened to all the nice pretty photos!

anyhoots, 2006 is coming to an end.. its been a tough year, this year.. 06 wasn't like the best year of my life.. i mean, in a way, it is, but things weren't as smooth-sailing, not the way I wan things to turn out to be. It was kinda disastrous and I'm glad this whole year is coming to an end. Nothing really major did happen. but im glad some things which I wasn't expecting to happen, happened. If not i wouldn't be bloggin now. (= I mean, i'm glad the boy is still safe by my side and all.. but putting a smile on his face and all are still important! know wad i mean..

I guess I learnt a whole new lot of things this year.. Cept that the sad part is that I haven't really learnt. I just understand them only. I mean, understanding them is the first step to learning ya?? So, i'll just learn more new things on the way and assimilate as much as possible before i hit adulthood! (dun ask me why, i THINK i need a target.. like how u have weight loss targets and all). Its gonna be exciting. cos next year, i'll be welcoming BIG 2-1 and sitting for my dear exams. how wonderful huh.. and by then, i hope the boi will bring me hot milo while im mugging for the god-damn exams and support me. heh! *no dear, i was just joking, u dun have to do that when u have no exams*

So, it turn out to be the 3rd Christmas we'll be having this year. Its' like special in a way cos we met during the festive season! ITs' gonna be 2 years of knowing each other exist in this small little piece of land next week! yes yes! STella's party was on the 18th Dec, if you'd forgotten! aNyway, hopefully things will work out the way i want next year (p/s"hope it isn't too early for a resolution)(p/p/s: is this even considered as a resolution?)

I'm sorry baby for all the hurt I've caused you, the miscommunications, the unecessary accusations (=X), the pyscho-maniac me, the 102% fucked-up-attitude problem me, the MANY times i drove u crazy up-and-down-left-to-right-inside-out, e self-centered me who doesn't give a hoot about your feelings-not even a single bit of attention, the paranoia streak in me, the insecurity and me, the rude and disrespecting me and so much more I could fill the pages in the encyclopedia. But nevertheless, I love the way you go all out to make me happy. (= love.

oh gawd.. and Christmas presents!!!
Drop me some hints ya.. and try to make it a little more obvious. I'm kinda like an idiot!

Happy (advanced)Christmas, 23 monate alt, New Year, Sweets!

260906

2006-09-27T06:45:00.000-07:00

hAPPy 20

260706

2006-07-25T18:17:00.000-07:00

the happy one and a half year.. twenty-sixth of july two thousand and six

so smile always

2006-06-28T21:50:00.000-07:00

life hasn been really smooth but we managed to walk passed.. she could be so sweet at one moment but the total opposite on the other.. i wish i knew how her mind work.. life's really short to keep bothering n for the past few days, each day of 24hrs seem to pass so fast.. to me.. i want to put dis to an end.. but i aint got any solution, i mus be able to accept hostility anytime cos she will jus fires at mi out of the blue.. should i wear a bullet proof vest fight the front line or raise the white flag n surrender.. tink i will choose the latter.. n when u love, u jus haf to love her n not care for ur own well-being.. been there n done that.. guess i could tolerate anytink other dan the fact she stepped put of my life.. for i jus 爱她.. love love n 爱爱.. u haf not found urself a bad man but someone hus willing to give so much, so smile always..

250606

2006-06-24T18:36:00.000-07:00

tmr.. .. e day mark the 17th month n we r still holdin onto each other hand.. nuthin great n significant, but is not easy.. it may not be a long period of time spent but it aint short either, is short but tough time for us, a day of 24 hour seems longer but im still glad.. it tasted sour writing dis, i jus haf to swallow swallow aite junhao.. guess all e prob lies w mi for worryin n carin abt her too much.. (or she jus felt im v fan ren) her temper changed.. get angry over the slightest insignificant thing, she lost control of her temper so easily.. i was so taken aback.. how? tell me wad to do.. neither am i angry nor am i losing the patience for her.. baby i hope u will read dis soon.. it felt so good when i see myself climbing up again, she gave me dis strength, am thankful.. but i was pulled down.. e nite at chomp chomp, she lost her fone n luckily enuff to recover it.. i had dis tot when she firs told mi abt it.. oh!! shes gonna lose all the msges i sent to her on da fone.. e mms poetry, dose love msges.. da fone din came across my mind.. she looked cool n calm but i was sad, im more worried over dan her.. (fone can always get a new one, visual memories shall not.. even one could remember but not everytink the details of every msges.. is so so many.. moreover e mms poetry i couldn draft it out again din save to outbox while sending !) every msg is unique, cos there will not be a repeated one as everytink comes fr da heart at da point of wad YOU wan to tell HER, it is sent n received thru different time n space, u will not get another one n even if u do or u do save it n could be send again is a different feeling after all compared to the msg u received n opened it for the firs time.. my heart sank when she told mi da fone was off but actually was jus the connectivity prob when both parties are trying to reach each other at da same time.. thx alot to e two ppl.. really.. she gave me the feelins i can get a new one since is so old anyway.. baby u dunno all dese right? dese are the stuff dat runs inside the complex brain of mine.. u pulled mi to da ground when u told mi dat i already tell u not to go w mi, shi ni zi ji yao qu.. i cant possibly be fault for the "good" things ive done.. i jus feel unfair.. yes ive said before u can treat mi e way u lyk it, n i will abide by it dun worry.. am i being fault for caring n to love a gal so much.. or even to concern abt my gal safety.. within mi it aint fair i haf my feelins.. but am sorry.. till daten to always, i still love ya n not to worry.. i wun deny ya any of my feelins n all e "nice comfy" u shall received.. .. cos i chosen ya as my partner.. .. no doubt dat im xin ku within but havin the tot dat u r by my side drew a smile on mi.. rem i told ya at least i haf e chance to squabble, bicker n wrangle as a BF now dan losing dis chance.. i will take it positively though im hurt tons inside.. im lost.. i lost myself n identity on dis path.. i dunno wad to do.. junhao grow to be a man, im jus dat lil boi?

n to dis online diary dedicated to her n to baby a very happy 17th month.. cheers.. sobbing away........ daddy..

envy thy every happy couples out there, and i yearn to be lyk u all.. i will n i will..

be as happy as can be

2006-06-10T23:27:00.000-07:00

yes im happy n im not gonna let her go again! precious thing.. i came to realise dat if u love someone, she doesn really need to be e one or e perfect gal u hope for.. i din noe how to explain wads love is all abt until dese two mths.. loving is abt making one n both happy.. life w/o the love one by ur side is atrociously meaningless, u would miss her/him everyday, every now n then.. now dat i wake up every morning there will be sth to look fwd to... her voice, smses n calls or even lookin at our pics n noeing dat shes by ur side, na zhong gan jue ni shuo bu chu de. love her n i really do.. wennnnn....

k jus a summary for e past few days wad i did w her.. hee.. bought her a top fr esprit n a card w both of our pics on it for b day n ya a cake.. im sorry dat i make ya worry so much .. i din mean it n i din noe it.. sorry!!! we watch benchwarmers haha so funny, n dine @ pasta again.. wrote her sth n send her via mms.. hee.. but not so good la.. baby baby baby.. hee.. jus the tot of ya i jus cant stop.......... we had pizza yesterday n she brought mi to sticker machine!!! yup went liquid room thereafter.. was so crowded.. teasing n makin fun at each other..notti ar!!! wad more can i ask for, for dis is already a blessing yep.. CONVIVAL!!! no more dat i wan to ask of her, i jus wan her to be happy w mi. study hard n make my mark den to say everytink in future.. no point bein an empty bucket..

260206

2006-02-27T05:29:00.000-08:00

hmm...yesterday was our 13th monthlyversary... its been a long while... and i meant LONG.. i din see him for a week k... )= we met at tamp to watch Final Destination III.. baby bought the tickets.. den we were hungry. so we bought McChicken and his fav chicken wings.. SO MUCH chicken can.. that boi ar.. haha...

it was one of the nicest day spent together for the past week.. we had dinner at cartel after that n we were so greedy, we ordered so much.. St Louise Ribs for me, Meat Lovers for him. .and we still ordered 3 HUGE chicken wings can... lol.. in the end we da bao.. oh.. we even had dessert! Oreo Cheesecake.. sO sO full...

baby bought me a chain cos i broke mine... Thanks darling! (= *mUacks*

anyway, that ke lian de hai zi, is in some jungle in Choa Chu Kang or Sembawang or Yishun, i dunno..probably tuang-ing behind a rover and infront of some bushes.. haha.. outfield for 5 days.. i need more of him man.. )= so so long...

faster faster come back k...
luv ya!
*baoBao*

5 long days.....

2006-02-23T02:21:00.000-08:00

hmm... darling...
it's been a tough month this month for us..
n though things between us are still as rocky, prickly, lousy, noisy, unsteady, childishly, and everything as ever... i assure you, it'd be less rocky, prickly, lousy, noisy, unsteady, childishly and everything in time to come k?

it'll be more lovey dovey.. i wish... it will... it will..

i wanna go dating with you!!!! )=
but i have to study and mug for exams..
i miss seeing ya!!
it's been a good 4 days. no. 5 days... gosh!

*bao tight tight* k?

OnE yEaR OlD

2006-01-24T18:47:00.000-08:00

hmmm... gonna be one year old le! time really flies for us though not smooth sailing but i still love u as much as before.. sorry for my lil short temper "i din noe i got it from where".. thank you for everything! one year old would mean no more baby love we gonna be infant and mature in time. n we haf to grow up n baby we are still very soft =P happy a year old to us..love ya darl!

prezzie

2005-11-16T23:25:00.000-08:00

never expected this to be churned out by me.. *Beams*

2005-11-16T23:16:00.000-08:00

i miss my baby..

)=

n im thankful for having him by ma side..

hmmm..

2005-11-14T06:45:00.000-08:00

so dead here.... blogger's so lazy to update.. tsktsk..

baby invades!

2005-09-26T09:38:00.000-07:00

BABY INVADES!

heh. just a quick one here..
just got back from dinner and movie w me darling bay-bee...
yep.. our e.i.g.h.t.h month together! yay!
imma happy happy gal.. but i failed to make my bay-bee happy.. )=

baobei.. thanks for today and tt really lovely chain! i really like it.. hope u like ur pressie! cos i like it alot. heh. USE IT~

off to bed..
lOvelOve my bay-beee always and always! (=
*muackz*

p/s: username and pass is the samE! (=

love hurts

2005-09-08T20:28:00.000-07:00

life has really been down for mi for the past few days. n love really hurts u from the outside and eats you up from the inside. it neva came across my mind dat such un feelin thingy do happen in real life.. i do care but somewhere somone somhow dun really bother.. y should i care if such things of disrespectfulness do happen n to go somewhere to enjoy herself out even w/o his bf at heart.. she dun care.. is music, alcohol n crowd such big attraction dat dey would jus make a gal to forget someone out there hu still care n love her.. go tink abt wad u really wan before comin back.. i will not be the junhao u noe anymore..

sum

2005-08-29T16:12:00.000-07:00

jus passed our seventh mth... gal gave mi a t- shirt n a self made carrier cum foto frame cum card... was really nice n sweet of her.. im starting to feel guilty.. haha.. it sounds so guai... seventh mth lyk gui jie.. saturday 270805 had a long wait for my dear liwen at home.. she got db =( sucha active gal of mine!!! but is good la rather dan she nua.. went ms for steamboat aft dat n went for pool.. she beat mi again...haha!!! sunday 280805 was bad for mi.. got diarrhoea might due to food poisoning.. but baby came to zhao gu wo!!! yay! really appreciate that.. thanx dear.. brought gf for bball.. she can really shoot!!! my sporty gal... haha... went for dinner n gh came along wif us.. aite shall stop here..

the maid

2005-08-24T13:14:00.000-07:00

watch the maid wif baby, she was so terribly scared cover her eyes all the time... neva seen her so scared before.. haha.. ke ai!!! went to pastamania for carbonara my fav n baby ate bacon aglio but we shared.. she say carbonara was NICER if i feed her.. is dat true? haha.. should be.. we had our waffle at gelare aft movie.. nice!!! maple syrup i lyk!!! its a great nite spent wif great company!!! dats all..

=(

2005-08-23T08:28:00.000-07:00

truthfulness and sincerity may not always fetch the prize they are worth... ... junhao in deep thots...........

town 210805

2005-08-22T10:01:00.000-07:00

was tired but still drag myself to town cos i wanted to see her badly.. bought 2 tops for her, one from forever 21 n one from top shop.. hope she likes it.. but things wasn good at top shop.. indecisiveness n lackin the ability to tink for her on my part led to argument.. argh! is a long story.. baby, wana apologise for my attitude.. hope u understand it.. anw u got 2 more tops added to ur wardrobe, should be happy aite.. n dun say "home sweet home" next time.. is disastrous!!! u wan me get back home =( ok there's a silver lining behind every dark cloud.. over le k..

past n present

2005-08-19T09:24:00.000-07:00

yup!!! life hasn been smooth for mi.. life is so unfair n truly life's a bitch.. u dun usually get wad u wan.. but i'm really happy dat ive found myself someone to share my life wif.. she adds flavour to my life spicing mi up makin mi to go thru several emotional changes dat ive neva felt before.. its extreme.. i cant balance it out.. flip flop on a libra... argh!!

放飞机

2005-08-18T04:27:00.000-07:00

baby came to find me at home.. was goin to zouk wif her fren Jul n company.. went baby's hse got change den we realise we gotten put SQ.. haiz.. got no where to go.. n thus went k boxin.. i sang ai hen jian dan for her, tink she likes it.. but i got no idea whether she knew i wan her to take note of those meaningful lyrics for her.. n gal ur singing is nice.. jus dat u lyk to anyhow.. ok.. baby i love u..

memoirs

2005-08-15T00:34:00.000-07:00

haven been takin account of e past 21 years of my life.. guess its time i leave some memories for myself.. memories.. of course there are good n bad ones, some worth cherishing it while some u jus haf to dump it.. but to me, no matter how ugly or beautiful it is, i found impt to keep it wif ya especially u haf ur love one wif ya.. happy ones are to put a smile on ur face when u tink of it while bad ones are for ya to gain experience in life.. dats abt it!!! k.. tink shall not waste another single second.. aite.. here we go... ...